Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft

Saturday, Oct. 09, 2004 - 3:01 a.m.

I confess, I'm no longer an alcoholic.
I spent the last couple days probing the old ways I held so dear, drinking until I felt I was completely gone, when suddenly it hit me.
Nothing happened.
Drinking's power to take me away, to augment my emotions and make the world melt away...all of it was over. I felt like I was at a party and an old friend had slipped out of the room without my notice. When I turned to confide in him again, he was gone. Now, the final question which begs an answer...
What must be done to fill the void?
Hmph, I may never know, maybe there isn't even a real void there to fill.
On another note, I'm back in college...and I'm giving it my all. I'm on quadruple supersecret probation with the faculty, a situation which demands I land a perfect GPA for the semester or else I'm out of the school. I think that this is just the push I needed to keep me on the straight, true path. I've been giving my all to every assignment, participating heavily in class, hell, I'm even thinking like a designer in my everyday life.
I think I can thank a couple of my close friends for opening my eyes a bit more to this new way of thought, friends like Clint and Jocelyn. Well, they're my two most artistically-tuned friends, and I've found that thanks to my studies I can now appreciate their work and my own in a way I don't think I ever could have otherwise.
Love and the persuit of the fairer sex is now settled on the back burner of my life...hell, they're not even on the stove. Fuck it, I'm gonna get through this at all costs, and I can't afford distraction. There's no sense trying to enjoy the company of the man I am now, because each day I emerge a new one.
I'm out of time...I'll get back to this tomorrow.
[Super deep and heartfelt thanks to Jocelyn, Trey Aven, Nate Gams, Clint, and myself for helping me achieve the second chance I'm not sure I deserved.]

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