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I'm 36 now. - Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021
Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft
Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021 - 12:51 a.m.
I was barely 18 when I started this diary. It was half a lifetime ago.
It's hideous, but so am I.
I haven't changed much. More pain. More to do. Still sad all the time. Cleaner, but not healthy. Tired but not from work.
I have a daughter, she's six now, and is all the happiness in my life.
I try not to be a disappointment to her. I wish I didn't keep disappointing myself.
Big changes are coming soon, whether I like it or not. I don't have anyone but my family.
Fear is the air I breathe and bravery is a mask. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm lost.
Every time I shatter and put myself back together, there are so many parts left over.
I'd gladly go back to any of the dates on this page. I wouldn't do anything the same way.
The biggest difference between me now and before, is that I used to have potential.
It feels like once I stopped growing I started dying from the inside out.
I can't even imagine another decade like this, but it's coming.