Talk to me on AIM at: INDEEDDonMann Past Entries at a Glance I've come crawling back to myself... - Sunday, Feb. 28, 2010
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Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft Thursday, Sept. 09, 2004 - 11:05 p.m. Is this not what you came to see? "Run run the past is gone, it cannot be undone Run run the future is here, our fate is drawing near!" I've hit a new low, even in this place where I consider myself to be the most important of all people for as long as the keystrokes last...yet I feel low. I'm drinking straight-up vodka, listening to Ayreon and trying to lose myself in the music. I'm wondering now why I am where I am, trying to trace back the events that led up to this moment. I'm going to be on the road a lot tomorrow, driving to manchester and then to Portland. My first instinct was to call Jesse...but quickly I reconsidered. "I'd sacrifice my very life To have you at my side Like a dream I see your face Through the misty haze We were one amid the stars And time never healed my scars Deep inside the sadness burns I must return!" Jesus, I just had a heart murmur. Anyways. I'm beginning to think I am bipolar, or something like that. I go from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows. Right now is the interval between, where I recognize the oncoming storm approaching and quickly drown my motor skills in alcohol...if I didn't, I don't know what I'd do. I've never been a violent man... This was a bad idea even for me. "I rest my broken heart, where the willows weep." |