Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft

Friday, Mar. 19, 2004 - 4:07 a.m.

Well, as the date draws nearer for my departure to college, I grow a bit restless, a bit more anxious.

There's something about leaving the city, something strange about breaking away from the mold and structure of my current life that mystifies me. Perhaps it's the fact that many of the people I feel that I have a strong connection with now are going to be tested, or maybe the test has already occured and I sense our relationship weakening. My friendships dangle about me like spiderwebs, and now I pull at the strands to see which will snap first. Who will forget about me entirely? It's almost scary to think that I will have achieved a state in some minds of near death, where they will sign online and not see me, or they will think of people to spend time with and subconsiously pass over my name, and perhaps the connotation of that will not strike them. Perhaps even it will never occur to them, it will be a blank spot in their lives bricked over by some new experience, or a new person to fill the gap.

Am I breaking free? Is there a path of personal growth or emotional/psychological development for me to set out upon, and perhaps my leaving was being hindered by their grasp. I bet in six months I'll look back on this and have an answer. For now, I will await it.

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